- I'm a glass-half-full type of girl. I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes, grave's disease and celiac disease in 2010 and life-altering allergies in 2013. I believe having a positive attitude is the only way to live with dis-ease. I also believe that life doesn't have to be PERFECT for it to be WONDERFUL. Dis-ease is expensive, so I live a frugal yet healthy lifestyle. This is just my blog; my day-to-day story.
Monday, April 2, 2012
And THIS is why I go to the bakery instead.
I've got real issues when it comes to dessert. There's just no limit to how much I can eat. I rarely make desserts anymore, because I recognize that I have NO self discipline when it comes to them. Sugar is like crack to me. I'm happy when I eat it, and I'm willing to sacrifice a lot to have it (blood sugar, weight).
That's why I usually go to the gluten free bakery and buy ONE item. One brownie. Or one cupcake. Because if I have a whole pan sitting in my house, I won't ration them out; I'll eat a whole bunch in one day and hate myself. I'm eating a brownie right now as I type this, even though it's 10:30pm and I know my overnight blood sugars are going to pay big time. Because one of two things are going to happen- either I've over-bolused and I'm going to be low overnight (and get no sleep ala CGM alarms), or I've under-bolused and the exact opposite is going to happen. And then I'm going to step on the scale in the morning and say self-demeaning things to myself.
I sort of hate myself right now for having no self control.