It is Sunday in the early evening and I am totally dreading my drive to work tomorrow. Living in Minnesota, I should be used to the winters but I'm really not! We are getting buried under snow and ice right now, and the weather folks are already warning about tomorrow morning's dangerous commute to work. Personally, I am a warm weather person; I need the sun to be happy! I think snow is pretty- in postcard pictures! But not being an outdoorsy-wintery person, I do not enjoy sub zero temps, skiing, snowmobiling or anything else that involves being outside in this weather! I can't wear cute shoes when the parking lots are full of slush and snow, or worse, ice. You just freeze to death walking in your work's parking lot from your car to the building's front door. Uggh. I am SO ready for Spring!! Or a job offer somewhere warm :)
This weekend was pretty lame. I had aggressive low and high blood sugars (mostly high) that left me feeling tired and unmotivated. I did drag myself out of the house on Saturday for a bit to the Mall of America to do a bit of shopping, then stayed home the rest of the day and night doing nothing. Last night, after having unexplained high blood sugars for over 5 hours, I changed my pump site and it made all the difference. I didn't notice any kinks, but something must have been malfunctioning because I was able to get my blood sugar back under control shortly afterwards. And I literally slept half the day today. I woke up at 8:30 this morning only because I heard the ice storm hitting the windows. So I got up, fed and pottied my babygirl Bella, made an omelet, and then fell in and out of sleep on the couch for the next several hours while watching all my recorded episodes of Shahs of Sunset on the Bravo network (don't judge- I need mindless, happy tv sometimes!). It sure made my day go by quickly! I can't believe it's already a "work night!"
I really need to get back on track with my eating. I don't know what's gotten into me but I have eaten BAD and unhealthy over the last week. I don't think I've craved anything healthy all week! Sweets, treats, baked goods, bread, you name it, I've eaten it in the last week. I feel gross and lethargic! I don't benefit in anyway from eating bad, and I don't know why I do it. I think I run to food sometimes as a way of self-medicating myself when I feel bad about things, but I never feel better afterwards. So I need to stop doing it! Plus, my blood sugar always pays a nasty price and it just isn't worth it to me. When I eat on my Paleo diet, I feel great and healthy and strong. My skin doesn't break out, either. Sure, I sometimes will miss the sweets but my blood sugar is so much better when I'm not eating crap that it makes it worth it to avoid it. It's hard this week too with Valentine's Day here and there's lots of candy everywhere and it's on sale at all the stores. I just have to say NO! Plus the cleaner and healthier I eat (read: less processed crap), the less likely I am to accidentally get glutened and suffer for days from that. When you make your own food from scratch, you know what's in it and how it was made so you don't have to worry about cross-contamination from the manufacturing process or from handling. So I feel like I benefit in a couple different ways when I eat healthy and clean- my diabetes behaves more predictably and I don't get glutened.
Tonight I'm having a salad with chicken breast on top, along with green olives, tomatoes, roasted red peppers and balsamic vinegar w/ oil. I LOVE green olives on my salad. Any olive, really, but green olives kind of give it a little salt and it's yummer.
Tonight I am going to take a nice long bubble bath, make my breakfast egg whites, pack a lunch of baked chicken and plain pureed squash, and then chill on the couch with my precious angel Bella. She really is my world- I love her so much! She's worth all the vacuuming I constantly have to do and all the fur everywhere LOL.
Here's hoping that each of us has a healthy wonderful week. It's a new week; a new time to start things off right- both your attitude and your diet!